These days i wish i was more often asleep than awake. #Selfie #selca #justwakeup
Moving in to a totally new place, no longer in the same estate seems like a refreshing change.
The environment is different, a better environment, awesome facilities and I’ve just met my first friendly neighbour! No more dodgy foreign workers, prostitution houses just below and the best part is no more trash, no more unwelcomed bugs/pests and NO MORE FUNNY SMELLING CURRY at 10pm in the night.
I’m thanking all my stars and whoever’s above for this great change, at a good price - considering the current rental market. I’m looking forward to all the possibilities this place can bring and of course, we can finally subscribe to Wireless Internet in the house!
Somehow along the way while moving, I hurt my back. I regret not following the ‘proper’ way of lifting heavy/bulky items and did everything in a rush. Now my back is paying for this. Sneezing is the worst, I have to be very careful and support my back while doing it. I tried doing it normally and it hurts so bad even my hip bone yelped.
Apart from all these, there are tons of other updates. Not in this space now, perhaps another time.
I just need a good proper rest.
Dressin it up the other day #ootd #wiwt #lookbooksg #ootdsingapore #vscocam #ootdsg #wiwtsg #zara #mds
Reviving my instagram with some floral lightweight drop waist dress from #zalora :) running errands with this in a hot weather makes it more bearable. Collecting the keys to the new place naoooo. #Ootd #wiwt #floralprints #lookbooksg #ootdsingapore #ootdsg #vscocam
Bandit: i am going to sleep now, so no more sneaky shots okay? Okay. Good nai. #banditthejackrussell #jrt #jackrussell #pets #dogs #sleepytime
i write for sanity.
please allow me to do some verbal vomiting and i honestly don’t care for right or wrong anymore. i just need to get this shit out of me.
i only found some time to update this because i’m waiting for some work document to be downloaded into this damn laptop (oh i love you laptop -it’s not you it’s me).
on a normal day, there’s nothing much to rant about. you have your typical clients - the nice, the shittaye, the dont-know-what-they-want, the i’m-your-only-client, the patient and what nots one.
but today. today my little diary is a whole new level of frustration. i had to run around to make do with whatever i have to get some studio-worthy shots for an editorial due this week(i know right). I had to borrow a camera, lens(travelled all the way down to boonkeng), and make do with terrible lightings and background for a studio-worthy looking shots of apparels. I had to borrow the expertise of Leroy(without paying him) and trouble him to help me with this. All in all, having to think about the DI-ing the designers have to do, the possibility of the shots going through the hands of the designers to make it look decent, the climbing ups and downs, the ‘hang it here, lets try’ or ‘put it there, maybe it’ll look better’ moments. OHMYGAWD i almost keeled over and died in frustration because they werent good enough - those shots.
And then I had to cancelled something else for all these trouble of travelling to and fro Raffles City & Westgate.
To have a new content strategy powerpoint due in the am of thursday, a pending editorial due this week, another editorial with shots due on thursday evening. Just my fuckin’ luck that this month only has 28 days as well. I’m running and chasing after time that I will never have.
I’m not saying I’m the only one going through this. Everyone else is and I’m sure they’re maintaining their sanity in other forms, and here I am trying to maintain mine and catch a breather at the same time.
To be honest, I don’t think I’m particularly good at what I do. I hand up things mostly of standard, but never exceeding expectations (oh for the brain of me, I dont know why I keep falling short at that) and in this industry, i’ll never get anywhere at this rate i’m going. But i’m so squeezed and strangled for time that I do not have the luxury to come up with something fantastic and take the lead and see it through without another demanding deadline creeping up on me.
There is no such thing as multi-tasking. I’ve googled it. Okay maybe one in a million can do it and too bad for me, I’m not that ONE in a fuckin’ million. How i wish i was.
I’m really trying and I risk sounding like a fuckin’ baby in this entry but I REALLY NEED TO RANT. And I am not blaming my colleagues or what nots. I’m just angry at the situation and the time frame given.
What time frame? I think if i work 24 hours a day I wouldn’t get good shit done anyway. Who am i kidding.
I wake up at bloody 7 or 730 am, make a one and a half or two hours journey down to office and the same back. I spend 4 hours travelling to and fro. Please don’t tell me in Africa people walk 3 hours to get to school. Thats beside the point now.
Making personal time for myself became a guilty thing. Like, ‘why should i have time for myself when there’s so much work to be done or due?’
leroy commented “you really make me hate friday nights”. why? Because, yes we had a long day at work and what nots, but i’ll insist on staying out or doing something silly or filling our fri evening schedules full of activities. even boring ones. as long as i’m not home wasting it away like every other weekday night. i push the limit of what our tired bodies can take and force ourselves to be ‘happening’.
to me at least, friday evenings and saturdays are the most important days in the week. thats when you (more or less) got no work commitment - or so i think. sundays are meant for recuperating for the crazy work week coming up. my work is unpredictable - there might be a last minute OT situation and I have to brace myself for it so weekdays evening, I seldom make plans if possible. My main aim on a weekday evening is to spend dinner with my family, even if it means I have to stay up to work after that dinner. I’m trying hard to achieve that “work-life balance” afterall.
yes occasionally or more often that not, because of this mentality, i work from home on the weekends to complete tasks that I havent been able to on the weekdays, in office. I dont mind that much, as long as I have the flexibility to plan my time around this. Make some plans, a little catching up with some friends.
we’ve found a new unit to call ‘home’ for the next 2 years at least so weekends and evenings will be spent packing up and throwing useless stuffs away because we’re moving on the 4th or 5th of March - that’s pretty soon btw.
okay gotta go wash the face mask off my face because Leroy is out to annoy me.
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Breathe, my friend. You are not old, you are young. You are not a mess, you are normal. Extraordinary, perhaps. In the blink of an eye your life will change. And it will continue to change for decades to come. Enjoy it, embrace it… be grateful for the ride. You are not old, you are young. And faith will get you everywhere. Just you wait."
— Abby Larson (via lovely—delight)