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Me on a Sunday morning, refusing to get out od bed. And now, its time for bed. #sundaymorning #neverleavingthebed #lazingaround #vscocam

Me on a Sunday morning, refusing to get out od bed. And now, its time for bed. #sundaymorning #neverleavingthebed #lazingaround #vscocam

At Tanjong Beach Club for TBF and I FINALLY have time for lunch and a short break on a grass patch. Weather is mad humid. #tbc #breaktime  (at Tanjong Beach Club)

At Tanjong Beach Club for TBF and I FINALLY have time for lunch and a short break on a grass patch. Weather is mad humid. #tbc #breaktime (at Tanjong Beach Club)

My #organicandnatural beauty haul from @nyr_sg during the official opening, with a customised muslin cloth with my name! Yay to better skin! #nyrsg #nealsyardremedies #organicbeautyproducts #organicbeautybrand #naturalbeautyproducts #igbeauty #instabeauty #gobluegogreen #ukbeautybrand #vscocam

My #organicandnatural beauty haul from @nyr_sg during the official opening, with a customised muslin cloth with my name! Yay to better skin! #nyrsg #nealsyardremedies #organicbeautyproducts #organicbeautybrand #naturalbeautyproducts #igbeauty #instabeauty #gobluegogreen #ukbeautybrand #vscocam

Openly Honest Post (done in a cryptic manner, hopefully)

So all I’ve been posting here are images from Instagram, when I get to take nice images as and when within snippets of free time.

Work took up 80% of my life. This is the biggest commitment up to date.

Let’s start with work-life balance. I would imagine a balance to be 50-50. So work should take up 50% of my time, and well, life the other 50%. What I currently have is an overwhelming 80-90% of work - and 10% of whatever life I can find.

I missed out on meetups with friends and even when I do make it, I’ll be late. And I cannot stay out too late, because the next day - I’ll be working OT anyway. I’ve been OT-ing for more than 2 weeks straight up.

I’ve moved out about 2 years ago and I make it a point to meet my parents on the weekend or weekdays for dinner at least once a week. That’s also not possible anymore.

Leroy has started work with a new company lately, and when I get home, he’s asleep. I’ve been working the past 2 saturdays outside, so I spend evening with him - but he has to go off earlier to work on the weekends sometimes. Once he’s home, I’m asleep because I’m so BLOODY tired.

How many times have I kept my parents waiting? Work is 9-6pm. I work on the average of 915-10pm(on a good day). Even times when I’ve informed earlier that my dad is waiting for me, this doesn’t count. It doesnt matter. Is this the work-life balance you promised me?

Apart from having work commitments outdoors or in office, I will have to work from home on the weekends. WHY? Because the workload, despite OT-ing is not enough. I have to spread it out over the weekends to get it done.

And it’s always about MY time-management issues. I’m new to the PR industry. I take time to learn about PR stuffs. However, that’s considered slow too. I had to voice out my confusion and I finally got some help.

That’s not it as well. I’ve been told that I’m a disappointment, I learn too slow etc.

WHAT.THE.FUCK.SERIOUSLY.

I give my time, my effort. I learn slow, I come in earlier to work to prepare or stay later to finish up. But of cos, that’s not enough too. Somehow. Because they don’t see the results.

I cry myself to sleep. I cried in the toilets, in the stairways, and to Leroy. I cried on the phone, off the phone and in my sleep. I woke up screaming because I had the image of my client and bosses haunting me. I come back upset, depressed, and I felt completely utterly useless because whatever good I do, it doesn’t triumphs or makeup for the lack of other issues.

I can swallow alot of things. I CAN. But there is a limit.

Truth be told, this job? Tons of people would’ve quit in a beat. But I stayed, because this is about learning, tolerating and afterall, this is how the working industry is like - right?

I do not deny the fact that my bosses TRIED to help. They take turns playing good-cop-bad-cop. I learned a thing or two that I never would’ve if I didnt take up this opportunity.

However, I had better job offers with a higher paying salary. And I took up this. I completely had no idea it’ll turn out like this.

hey-ho! Going all gladiator style today, on the feet. #vscocam #footwear #gladiatorsandals #whatsonmyfeet #asos #igshoes #instashoes

hey-ho! Going all gladiator style today, on the feet. #vscocam #footwear #gladiatorsandals #whatsonmyfeet #asos #igshoes #instashoes

Omg. I just saw this image on pinterest and i laughed to myself at the bus stop. Lol!!! #Pinterest #puppies #chubbypups #thatface #happysunday

Omg. I just saw this image on pinterest and i laughed to myself at the bus stop. Lol!!! #Pinterest #puppies #chubbypups #thatface #happysunday

Thank you Charlotte for all the help, support and advices you have dished me. I wish I had gotten to know you better, earlier. See you around! LURRRRVE YOU ALL! #accesscoms #girlsatwork #epicinclusionofcocopuffs #hatefarewellsbutnochoice #pillarsofsupportatwork #vscocam #colleagues

Thank you Charlotte for all the help, support and advices you have dished me. I wish I had gotten to know you better, earlier. See you around! LURRRRVE YOU ALL! #accesscoms #girlsatwork #epicinclusionofcocopuffs #hatefarewellsbutnochoice #pillarsofsupportatwork #vscocam #colleagues

The other day at the shoot, I saw these gorgeous embellished gowns. #gowns #embellishments #vscocam

The other day at the shoot, I saw these gorgeous embellished gowns. #gowns #embellishments #vscocam

So, had one helluva shittaye morning. Cab went MIA on me. And i was running about in the rain trying to find it only to realise that it left. Waited for 20 minutes and another 15 for another replacement cab. It was raining yada yada so there was a massive jam. And that wasnt it. The cab driver missed a turn and took 10 minutes to find a U turn. Good lord. 

That STILL wasnt it. In a meeting that really pushed my limits. I couldnt defend myself nor prove myself. All those late nights and coming in 2 hours earlier for work? Meant nuts to anyone. As long as I cannot finish the overwhelming work, then no shits done according to anyone else. 

I honestly was busy. I dont even get to surf facebook, discover new influencers, think of an exciting new campaign or branding ideas for digital sphere. Zilch. 

I’m forever chasing timelines and to do lists. Never ending. Everything is urgent, everything is by today everything is asap. What the fuck seriously. 

There is zero work life balance, to be honest. 

Now, let’s just hope that it’s just for “now”. If not god knows when I’ll snap.

So, had one helluva shittaye morning. Cab went MIA on me. And i was running about in the rain trying to find it only to realise that it left. Waited for 20 minutes and another 15 for another replacement cab. It was raining yada yada so there was a massive jam. And that wasnt it. The cab driver missed a turn and took 10 minutes to find a U turn. Good lord.

That STILL wasnt it. In a meeting that really pushed my limits. I couldnt defend myself nor prove myself. All those late nights and coming in 2 hours earlier for work? Meant nuts to anyone. As long as I cannot finish the overwhelming work, then no shits done according to anyone else.

I honestly was busy. I dont even get to surf facebook, discover new influencers, think of an exciting new campaign or branding ideas for digital sphere. Zilch.

I’m forever chasing timelines and to do lists. Never ending. Everything is urgent, everything is by today everything is asap. What the fuck seriously.

There is zero work life balance, to be honest.

Now, let’s just hope that it’s just for “now”. If not god knows when I’ll snap.

Zespri’s SunGold Kiwifruit partners with Maison Ikkoku, Stellar at 1-Altitude, Spatula Bakery and Udders to serve you deeeeelicious Zespri SunGold Kiwifruit dishes! 

I’ve tried some of the dishes and to be honest, they’re really yummy and delectable; ) 

Do head on down to try them for yourself! 

#Zesprisungoldkiwifruit #zespri #sungold #sungoldkiwifruit #fullofgoodness #powerpack #kiwifruit

Zespri’s SunGold Kiwifruit partners with Maison Ikkoku, Stellar at 1-Altitude, Spatula Bakery and Udders to serve you deeeeelicious Zespri SunGold Kiwifruit dishes!

I’ve tried some of the dishes and to be honest, they’re really yummy and delectable; )

Do head on down to try them for yourself!

#Zesprisungoldkiwifruit #zespri #sungold #sungoldkiwifruit #fullofgoodness #powerpack #kiwifruit

An #ootd shot taken on Saturday itself. I was so relieved and thankful for the long weekend. I might have possibly lost my marbles if not for this timely break, and that explains alot considering that I’m in this new job for a month. 

It requires alot from me. Of course, it helped me pushed whatever limits I had. It doesnt nudge me along but it literally SHOVES me along with the flow. There’s so much to learn and so much expectations to meet. 

And there’s the satisfaction when you’ve done something well but its still kinda early to feel that. Maybe in another 3 months. 

People explained to me that it’s about time management but I think its really more than that. I missed out on 4 gatherings/catch ups with friends and old friends because I have yet to finish my work or because I need the rest to battle the next day. 

Maybe its a matter of getting used to things. Just, maybe. 

To be honest, there’s really no such thing as an off day because you’ll still have to be on top of things, to respond whenever the client demands and to use that off day to finish work that spills over from your regular workday. 

Well, I’ll see what my limits are and will I end up soaring or falling flat on my face.

An #ootd shot taken on Saturday itself. I was so relieved and thankful for the long weekend. I might have possibly lost my marbles if not for this timely break, and that explains alot considering that I’m in this new job for a month.

It requires alot from me. Of course, it helped me pushed whatever limits I had. It doesnt nudge me along but it literally SHOVES me along with the flow. There’s so much to learn and so much expectations to meet.

And there’s the satisfaction when you’ve done something well but its still kinda early to feel that. Maybe in another 3 months.

People explained to me that it’s about time management but I think its really more than that. I missed out on 4 gatherings/catch ups with friends and old friends because I have yet to finish my work or because I need the rest to battle the next day.

Maybe its a matter of getting used to things. Just, maybe.

To be honest, there’s really no such thing as an off day because you’ll still have to be on top of things, to respond whenever the client demands and to use that off day to finish work that spills over from your regular workday.

Well, I’ll see what my limits are and will I end up soaring or falling flat on my face.

Outfit for a day of running errands! #Wiwtsg  #ootdsg #Lookbooksg #vscocam

Outfit for a day of running errands! #Wiwtsg #ootdsg #Lookbooksg #vscocam

My fingers celebrates your birthday too, Singapore! #nailartsg #Manicure #naillove #nailextensions #Vscocam

My fingers celebrates your birthday too, Singapore! #nailartsg #Manicure #naillove #nailextensions #Vscocam

Last night’s soft shell hand wrap. #Dinner #japfood #japanesecuisine #handmaki #handwrap #Vscocam #igfood #instafood

Last night’s soft shell hand wrap. #Dinner #japfood #japanesecuisine #handmaki #handwrap #Vscocam #igfood #instafood