Bout 5 years ago. #Throwbackthursday #backthen #selfiesg #selcasg
I tendered. Today.
I’ve thought about it long and hard and decided this is the best. Because somehow, I felt that I wasn’t living up to expectations, I couldn’t deal with the workload, nor did I manage my time well enough. There were also commitments I couldn’t see myself doing too. I’m not willing to sacrifice my social life(if any), time spent with my bf(not that he’s very free too), and my family(who’s complaining that I’ve been neglecting them for so long).
Thinking through the past 7 months or so, the relationships forged thus far and the experience I’ve gained made me sad. I did like the people. I think the culture is pretty cool too. But the workload wasnt. Neither was the system smooth. Unfortunately, it simply didn’t work out. I sincerely wish it did, but it just didn’t. I don’t wanna wait till I hate it enough to leave. I want to leave when I still have some positive feelings about this whole experience when I look back.
Like how I explained to my boss, ‘i don’t hate the work. Neither did I like it’. It’s completely non-personal. I guess its something that can’t be helped and I honestly do feel sad about it, about tendering.
The HR even told me to reconsider and that the letter is always gonna be there for me to take it back, if I ever want to.
My boss was really nice throughout it all, caring and wanting to know what’s the main cause/reason for this decision. I was scared and I hated to talk any uncomfortable stuff face-to-face. Heck, I even broke up with ex boyfriends over the phone, text message. I couldn’t even deal with listening to his voice. Okay, to stop sidetracking it was really pleasant and simple.
Well, at least I got this out and now I do not have to stress over my decision nor do I have to worry about letting people down anymore.
Now, I just have to finish up my job well. Complete with the handover and all, and just move on.
By then, I will probably draft up another thoughtful post.
How do you completely trust someone? Or do you only trust someone whom you have known for long? Just, how?
Someone whom you’ve met 5 minutes ago gave you a summarised version of his/her life, accompanied by the demeanour and their body language - is that how you judge?
How will you, without any doubt or question, trust someone entirely?
Because I’ve seen people whom you have known for years, they turned out to be someone entirely different and they abuse/betray your trust afterall.
How do people do it, to trust someone like that?
— Unknown (via perfect)
While we have our delicious home cooked dinner, MM was having her broccolli! #hammies #hamsters #furball #igpets #instapets #snacking #socuteiwannasquish
I’ve been ranting on and off about this Fucktard Intern and Dumbass AE from R*T*(how does the name of the company even make sense? running into a fireball?!) and….. I’m pretty surprised how they’re still surviving in this industry.
Or maybe their freelancers complain elsewhere. Like me!
So fucktard intern already screwed up the entire process by not having common sense(have you been partyin too much or what?) and Dumbass AE seems to be following closely behind, determine not to lose. Afterall, it is their mistake for screwing it up and ensuring that the deadline is made shorter for the Designer to produce last minute work. Rush to the brink of death - nevermind. Rush but still wanna have so many retarded edits - never mind. Then came the ultimatum - the Dumbass AE requested Designer to postpone Tomb Sweeping day for her work or for the fucktard intern’s mistake. BRAVO GUYS.
That’s not the worst. Send low res images to do artwork - fine, understandable too. Then sending over hi res images BIT BY BIT - wow, the capacity of your brain amazes me. Still not over. After designer spending countless nights rushing this piece of shit local talent musical show collaterals for you, you tell him need to resize the entire brochure. WOW. Now, I’m pretty damn sure your grave is the one I wanna sweep next year man.
OH and PLEASE do not use reasons like ‘oh but we pay your cheque fast’. LIKE O’RLY? You mean HALF the cheque and delaying and postponing OR heading down only to be told that the Finance asshole is not around to issue the check? Then for fuck you ask the designer to go down and collect or even inform the designer that it’s available already? Also, its not really a favor since the designer DOES have every right to collect 50% of payment first. So please, don’t make yourself out to be all saint and gracious - when in fact, you’re just a conniving bitch that is inexperienced with your job.
Yes, you should be honoured I dedicated 15 minutes of my time thus far ranting about it. On the side, raining curses that you wish you’ll never hear too.
I hope both of you get fired. Both your useless asses.
Aside to nice girl, maybe this is more a burden than help.
Latest trend - having a mushroom head. On a side note, my dye is fading off to my original colour *wails #selfiesg #selcasg #fotd #motd